In five days I should be O'ing. I'm not sure I like that terminology. O'ing could have another meaning to some, lol. Both, are relatively in the same category though, conveniently enough.
Anyway, today I worked, kept myself as busy as I could, and of course was thoroughly annoyed with practically each customer. I guess, I should have more patience with them considering that I want children as badly as I do. I got a little emotional tonight when husb and I were talking about babies. I'm so worried that it won't happen for us. It's a scary thought. And, at times I have a hard time imagining us with children, and that is horrible for me. DH always stays confident, and tries to keep me positive. Tonight he spent reminding me that every dr visit we have, we get better news than the last, and he's right...we have. And, I need to start thinking positively. I'm afraid if I do, then I'll get my hopes up and be let down. I'd rather be negative and get good news. Pathetic, huh? He also reminded me that though it feels like we're the only ones having difficulty TTC...we're among many. Hearing other peoples stories who have ended up conceiving make me feel better, especially those who with similar situations who conceive with Clomid. Maybe, 3rd times a charm? Lets hope so. :)
The rest of this week will be pretty easy. I work tomorrow, off Tuesday, work Wednesday and then off Thursday, Friday and somehow...Saturday. Sounds like a BS schedule to some... but I enjoy it...lol. I do not like to work. Maybe, I'm a slacker...? I need to get off my butt and get myself back into school and do something with myself.
The husband broke his finger, slamming it in the garage door...poor thing. It looks so bad, and swollen. I feel bad for him. I guess I don't have much else to say... So I'll keep you posted. I'm sure I'll write again tomorrow. I don't have any followers, so I'm not real sure who I am writing to, but if you're reading this... I'm sorry for the lack of excitement. ;) lol
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